This week started out like any other.
Early week at work, so I knew I had to get some sleep Sunday night for a crazy Monday. This meant I couldn't settle my brain at all to sleep very much. See? That is how stress rises in my head.
Tuesday was my first ever Zumba class after work. Yes!! I did okay for a beginner with breathing issues. I did a couple of the songs, all of the warm up and most of the time when I was on my feet, I kept my feet moving even if only stepping in place or moving side to side. The point is, I went, I tried and I stayed the whole time and No one, Not one person made fun of me or said one tiny little word about my coughing, my attire or anything. We were all laughing about ourselves and trying to do something healthy for ourselves. I was finally feeling part of the group at work.
Wednesday night after work, I came home and planned/prepared dinner with baked salmon, rice and steamed broccoli. It was a yummy, healthy plate of food. I was pretty stinking proud of that.
Work day routine, home chores like cooking and laundry come and go. I worked in some crocheting this week too and even opened an Etsy shop so folks can buy the blankets and scarves I have made. You can check it out at https://www.etsy.com/shop/ThePurpleOwlCrafts?ref=seller-platform-mcnav
I was feeling tired, needing to stretch because that zumba class did a number on this old body of mine. But I was pushing through and doing my best not to complain or worry about bills or any of the million things hanging over my head right now.
Then, BOOM!!! I got fired today. Yes I made the mistake and I fully admitted it. But I was shocked they fired me over it. Tears fell while I was talking to my Manager, but I faced the music and cleaned out my station, texted my hubby, and left a job I had fallen in love with, while quietly saying my goodbye's to a couple of ladies I felt particularly close to.
So I left that place, went to see hubby at his work and then went to the grocery store. I got home, put a roast in the crock pot, started laundry, did the dishes and have started working on another crochet project. I have also applied to a few jobs this afternoon in the area and put a few feelers out.
SO here I am 5:30 pm on Thursday the 25th of January wondering what is next. I wonder what opportunity is out there for me to tackle. I wonder about bills, money, food in the house and ooh, there it is (my depression), is back to be my friend. I keep pushing it away and now I have a headache coming on.
Please don't be alarmed if I don't talk as much, if I don't participate as much, or if I have to back out of an event. I have hit a wall and my mind/body has reached survival mode (again).
I will do my best to not bother you with my troubles, but no guarantees!
My son asked to borrow money last week and I had to tell him no because our funds were so tight here after my surgery. This hurt me so much to tell him we couldn't help him. I don't even know if he reads the blog, at one time his wife did. No matter, I love them all and wish I could give them the world (financially speaking of course).
As I said, life happens and we will get through this as we have before. Please take care of one another, give out the hotline number or call the authorities for a wellness check on someone. Trust me, if they are on your mind enough to worry about, it's enough to call about. The number is
1-800-799-7233.
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