Full Moons, Iron Skillets and Mood Swings

This past weekend was a Full Moon.

I fully believe and have experienced the effects the Full Moon has on ones moods, feelings and attitudes and sometimes those feelings get out of control.

I am 48 years old and I miss my grandmother (Mama Mac) very much. She passed in March of 2006. I am blessed to have a few of her mixing bowls and one of her iron skillets. Though I do not consider myself a cook by any stretch of the word, my hubby has learned a few recipes and truly enjoys preparing meals over the grill and using the iron skillet.

Mother's Day and Father's Day are both emotionally difficult for me and have been for many years.

I was extremely over sensitive on Sunday evening and took things I heard the wrong way. I was very upset and only a few people heard about my meltdown.  I even got possessive over that iron skillet because in my upset state of mind, it was all I had left symbolically of my grandmother and I was fearful that others were going to take it away or destroy it.

I have a few photos of my grandmother and lots of memories. My children are old enough to have been small children before the alzheimer's took her away from us. I remember Mama Mac Ironing clothes and helping Brian with his spelling words. Kourtney remembers going to Lewisburg and spending a few days with her.

I would love to introduce her to my dear David and my grandchildren too. I have often told David that he and Mama Mac would probably shoo me out of the kitchen to cook if she were still alive. He always smiles at that thought.

I have horrible mood swings, pain without a reason, and cry at the drop of the hat, but I love hard and I give all I have along the way.  I hope I am blessed with a few more years to love and cherish all my grandchildren and that they remember me as fondly as I remember Mama Mac.