Boiling over

We all know what a mess it makes when a pot on the stove boils over, well our lives are very similar to that as well.

If we don't deal with issues as they come, the eventually hit a boiling point and things will be said and it is often said that person just blew up today. Well, That happened to me today.

Many things here at work have been eating at me and aggravating me and my boss started criticizing me and I just said my peace and told him all my grievances and upsets in one fell swoop.

This was not a planned conference but lots of issues were aired and lots of things were said that had been held in for 18 months or more.  As most of my readers know, I truly hate my job and many things that go along with it, so I imagine most of you can guess what I spoke up about.

I am simply a 48 year old woman with a ton of stress on me right now, a house full of people, extra bills to pay and now eye surgery in a few weeks as well. Everyone has their hand out, but very few are around to let me vent or listen or just have a cup of tea/coffee with me while I ramble on about my crazy life right now.

I do have lots to be thankful for, and I am grateful for those things and people every day (and many times a day), I feel very helpless in my life right now and I have turned to worship /praise music to keep me sane and remind me exactly who is control and that it is NOT me.

I am not ashamed of a single thing I said because I know I spoke the truth from deep in my heart, I just hate the way it all happened.

Rest Assured I still have gainful employment but I have put in more job applications this afternoon than I normally do in a week. I truly want to find my purpose and would love a job in a yarn store where I feel I would do the most good.

I do my best daily to put on a good and friendly face to handle the day's work, but that doesn't always happen. I am just part of flawed humanity trying to get along the road to my heavenly home someday.

I am not a worship leader but I know my Bible and I know the promises there for all of God's Children. I will work harder to be kind and to be a better friend n the coming hours and days.

Please don't turn away from someone with health issues, no matter if you understand them or not. Be a friend, be kind, listen more than you talk and you just LEARN something.

Your yarny blogger and friend,
MaryAnn