Facing the Future

The future is a scary place.
We are all headed 'there', yet most of us are very frightened of our future and what it might hold and who may or may not be with us in that future place.

I am turning 49 on the 23rd of September.
I have several health issues and I am not able to get around like I used to.

This summer has been extremely stressful on me personally through my job, home life and family issues. I have done my best to keep everyone at peace and I have failed miserably.  Even my son and husband agreed that it is not my job to keep anyone happy.

I am praying for resolution and answers to many things going on at home that I am unable to fix. I can only sit by and watch it all happen. Often, you will find me at a restaurant hiding from the house so I don't have to listen or see what is happening at the house.

I have cried a lot this summer.
I have had a lot of deep discussions with my son this summer.
I have experienced healing and hope for the future this summer.
I am praying more this summer than I recall doing in years.

My mom tribe has been so good to me to constantly listen and help me through issues that seem to constantly come at me out of nowhere.

I have been blessed with a caring husband who sees me depressed, anxious, sad and hopeless and loves me through every bit of it. When I just need to vent about my day, I can tell him what made me mad and he does not take it personal, when I need suggestions to a problem, he will put on his 'fixer hat' and do his dead level best to help me find a solution.

My cataract surgery was 2 weeks ago yesterday and in a couple more weeks I will return to the optometrist to get new glasses so that my eyes will coordinate and work together again.

Day to day life is hard and you can be going about your day and offend someone without even realizing it. I am committed and determined to stop apologizing for living and just live my best life for the days/months I have left and love the ones that want to be around me.

That is truly all I can do.
This is me shaking the dirt off my feet and moving on to others that care and others that will join me on my journey.

I pray you are safe and you are loved. Call a friend, text another friend, call your mom and make her laugh. Always be kind!