He sees you

Last week, when I was feeling down and out and crying day and night (yes, still going to work and putting one foot in front of the other), I saw a friend post a video from King and Country and the song was "God Only Knows".

Since seeing that on facebook, I have played the song at least 15 times and every time it reminds me that God knows what I have been through and GOD knows the struggles I have and it reminds me that no matter how dark it seems, the creator of this grand universe knows my name and the number of hairs on my head.

I sat on my front porch and the tears rolled Saturday morning as I drank my coffee and tried to figure out what to do next. I had that song blaring from my cell phone over and over to get through my thick skull that I serve a God who cares and a God who knows all I have done, has forgiven me and loves me still every night and day no matter how much I only see my failures, my God does not see me that way.

Then a couple days later, I was at the office by myself and I went over to youtube.com and found a teaching series from Priscilla Shirer. I picked it randomly because I love her teaching and how she shares God's message. Her message that day was "He sees you". WOW, more tears fell and the message got through to me and my little candle of hope shined brighter and dispelled the darkness that tries to swallow me up.

Then, Sunday, I hear a message from Pastor Jamie that reminds me that we all matter, we all have something to give even if it seems very very small. We all have something we can do to serve and help others.

And I humbly say, Dear Lord, I get it, I can serve and I can make a difference, show me what to do.

Thank you Lord for my parents, my family and my mom tribe (Judy, Denise, Linda and Becca). Thank for the couch to sit on, the table to crochet at, the conversation, the text message or the phone call. I love each of you.

I have to admit, I do not consider myself strong by any means, but with my friends and family surrounding me (both local and virtually), I know I am pretty strong. 

I am asking for prayer as I close today's blog. Thursday morning at 8am central I have to be at Horizon for cataract surgery. I know how routine the surgery is and I have heard mostly good stories, and nevertheless, I am anxious and scared of being put under and not waking up. Pray for me to remain calm, follow doctor's orders and for God to guide the doctor's hands as they do the procedure.
My sweet husband will be by my side to take care of me, get me home and all that follow up stuff, so pray for him too.

Much love to all of you!
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