Fighting and Praying

3 months without a job wears on my mind.

I feel like a burden and in my head I convince myself no one wants to be around me either. This is how that old enemy depression keeps me trapped here at home.

I nap to escape my reality and when my body is finally exhausted enough to allow me a few hours sleep.

My coughing spells are getting longer and that means it takes longer to recover.

I am not being anti-social, It is just easier to have a spell at home and not have to be embarrassed or harassed by someone in public thinking I have the flu.

Most of the Walker clan got together on Saturday to celebrate Daddy's birthday. Kourtney made a wonderful cake decorated with Wile E. Coyote and the Road Runner.

I got up on Sunday on put a roast and veggies in the crock-pot and seasoned everything with our Penzey's Spices. If you have never used Penzey's spices, I highly suggest you check them out. I would have never used them if my sister in law was not working for their shop in Bartlett, TN.

I am so thankful for my church family at Covenant Church. I was not in the mood to speak to anyone at all, however, I knew I needed to be at worship today for my mind and soul. 

With David working any shift he can pick up, I am tackling the cooking chores more nights than before and so far I am doing pretty well and gaining confidence in the kitchen again after all these years.  Having a hubby that likes to cook and is encouraging my experimental recipes.. is a blessing.

I am not going to sugar coat things.. my life is nothing to write home about. We are simply 2 people working together to get through this rough time. We are blessed to have each other and know that somehow God will carry us through.

I know in my heart that my illnesses cannot limit me unless I allow them to, however I am also realistic and know when enough is enough. I pace myself at the grocery store and once I get home to get all the groceries brought inside and put away.  I usually end up having a rough coughing spell unless I truly take my time.

In case you are wondering what illnesses I deal with, here is the list (in order of diagnosis):
Asthma
COPD
Depression
Sleep Apnea
High Blood Pressure
Anxiety

I truly miss planning and going on camping trips with my daughter's GS troop. We had such fun times and even though I usually turned my ankle, I loved the exploring hikes at all the camps around our GS council back in those days.

I want to take my grandsons camping so badly.. we may end up just in the back yard once the ground dries out (that may be mid-summer before we are dry again here in Tennessee).

I continue to pray and stay thankful because even without a job and having rough health days, I know I am very blessed.

If you have a need for a warmer, some candles or need a handmade crocheted gift for someone you know, please reach out via facebook or text and let me know. I am sure we can find/create a great gift for you here in the crochet/candle room.

Come and visit me here at the house, let me know you are coming over and I will either put the kettle on or start some coffee. I would love to catch up with you friend!