Fifty

 Today marks 50 years of my existence on Earth. 

I have both been looking forward to it (to get over it and forget about it) and dreading it all at the same time. 

I tend to be fairly analytical and wonder what do I have to show for myself when I hit certain milestones. Turning 25 was horrendous for me because I felt like such a failure for being a single mom working for the state and just barely getting by and providing for my children. 

I had nightmares for years that I would die before I turned 29 so that year was unnerving to say the least.

I have floated along since just ignoring the numbers and doing my best to ignore my birthday because I just didn't want the attention. 

Then 2020 came along and as we all know, this year has been one for the history books. 

As I survey what my life looks like at the age of 50, I see blessings, I see a husband who works hard and loves me very much. 

My health is not what I would like it to be, so I do my best to navigate and manage the good and bad days.

 I am blessed to be healthy enough to have my grandsons over for a visit fairly often. 

I am blessed with multiple home based businesses that bring income into house to help with the bills. 

I am blessed with friends that check on me via social media, texting or phone calls.

So my conclusion is that my 50th year is a blessed year indeed. 

Thank you to all my readers and friends. I pray you have a blessed day !! 

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