Monday Musings

Good Morning !

I am tired (but I am always tired it seems), but I am thankful for another day.
I am hurting, but nothing I cannot handle.
I am sad for what I have lost
I am thankful for what I have every day

I am unemployed but that doesn't mean I am a bad person
I procrastinate when it comes to most things
I am called Mimi by 5 little children and I wish upon wish every day to have all 5 of my grands here for just a short time.

 I miss my son so very much. I am afraid to say this too much for fear folks will judge me or my daughter will feel slighted. It has now been 8 years since my son moved out west and for most of that time he was there and I was here. He is no mama's boy by any means, but that doesn't mean I miss him any less.

I have had interviews and assessments and phone interviews and I keep waiting and praying for the next step to be shown to me. I know God has something great ahead for me, I just cannot see it with my human eyes.

I sit up late at night crocheting with the television on so that when I do get up and go to bed, I am so exhausted my mind/body just shut down. This is how I am fighting the depression right now. I am doing everything I can think of not to sleep away the days like depression begs me to.

Creating/crafting through crochet is so much more than making a blanket to me. It gives me something for my mind to focus on and when I make certain things for certain people, I can focus on them and making the project the best possible way so that it is as close to perfect as I can get. I can get lost in the yarn department at Michael's because it goes on and on. There are yarn types I have never used and there is my go-to yarn colors and types that I love working with.

We watched the game last night and were on the edge of our seats as the Eagles won their first Superbowl. So happy for them and their fans/families!!

I truly hope you have a wonderful week and if possible, check on those you don't see every day, just reach out and make sure they are okay. It means a lot to find out someone was thinking of you.

If you are in a dangerous relationship or he/she threatens you in anyway, please call the hotline and get out. It is hard to take that step and pack that bag, but somewhere in your mind, you know it needs to happen. I pray you are all safe and sound where you are. Here is the hotline number just in case you or a friend need it 1-800-799-7233