Comfort is fleeting

We all enjoy being comfortable, whether this is referring to the house temperature, our comfy chair or a work situation, we all would prefer to be comfortable in our own situations.

2 weeks ago I was rear-ended by a 95 Chevy pickup truck while I running errands on my lunch break. I have been in constant pain ever since. The ER and my regular doctor say nothing is broken (per the x-rays and CT Scan), but the pain is there nonetheless.

We are playing that waiting game to see what they decide about my car and for the time being I have a rental car to get back and forth to work so I don't have to ask others for a ride.

I am thankful the boys were not with me when the wreck occurred, because that is all I could think about when I saw the trunk of my car all crunched up.

My back, my shoulder and my neck are achy and sore every day and I have meds to help with the pain.
 Do I want to be medicated?
No, I do not. I would love to get up in the morning without pain, but for now, I have pain every morning until the medication kicks in.

That old depression beast keeps knocking on my door and I keep the door closed as much as possible. Sitting at home in pain and having so many worries is not where I want to be.

I still have my job at the CPA office, but it is only a paycheck and I must keep myself distanced from the clients and the hoopla that surrounds them.  I do not have it in me to sell something I don't believe in. My boss is pushing to take action that I do not want to and I have to keep ignoring him when he mentions it. I walk a tightrope everyday because I am only here for the paycheck, not to drink the kool-aid he is pouring. It makes for a difficult work atmosphere when you don't trust your boss or believe in him.

I have been applying for jobs since last summer and even had a few interviews, but nothing came of them.  I also have to believe I am at this job for a reason only God knows. I trust God above all others, so because of that, I stay here.

I have slowed down a bit on my crochet work because I just don't have the energy to sit up once the work day is done. But that is Okay with me, because the crochet is a hobby and is supposed to bring me joy, not frustration.

I still have both my websites up and running if you are interested in Origami Owl Jewelry or PartyLite Gifts.

While I may not have comfort unless I am home laying down, I know I am blessed and I am thankful for what I have and those in my life that choose to stay by my side no matter what.

Check on your loved ones, call and make sure they are okay and they know how you feel about them. Send a card, send a message, pick up the phone, they will be happy you reached out.

If you are in danger, call the authorities. If you need help and a safe place to go, call 1-800-799-7233 and they will get you in touch with a shelter.