Sunday nights

Another week has passed and I hope and pray your week was productive in whatever you may be working on or working towards.

I had a pretty rough week, I am still very puzzled by my supervisor and their actions last Monday.
I did take every personal item home from my office/desk on Tuesday. I brought home my oil diffuser, my melt warmer, all my pictures, coffee cups and other things that were personal. It took 3 trips to my car and I am sure they were wondering what was going on as I took all that stuff home Tuesday afternoon.

I worked on cases that are ongoing, I took on 2 new projects the boss gave me and did the best I knew how to to function in an office that I despise. It is extremely difficult to go every day to a job you hate and how you hate even being associated with the boss in any shape, form or fashion. 

I put in more job applications, I had sleepless nights and one episode at 3 in the morning where I recall telling my husband how much I hate myself. Yes, you read that correct, I do hate myself a lot of the time.  I look in the mirror and I see what I cannot do, I see my limitations instead of my skills and the things I am really good at. Depression and anxiety work well to mask the things I am good at. I am still pushing through this daily.

This week 2 of my crocheted blankets arrived at their forever homes and both the recipients were very appreciative of the gift. This made my week feel productive because I was able to give another human being something I made with my own two hands.

As I sit here in my bedroom, I hear the rain falling outside and wonder how drenched my hubby will be once he gets home from work this evening. I worry about him a lot and I know the worry doesn't change a thing.

I am thankful for random talks with my son that start about one thing and end up being mini-history lessons from when he was a baby that he has never heard.

I pray we all have a great week and we accomplish the things we set out to.
I hope you all have a peaceful place to call home and a soft place to rest your head.