Having Peace

I hope you are having a nice Sunday evening.

This morning I was blessed to attend worship services at my church.   One of the points in Pastor's lesson was about having peace about every decision you make. This hit home with me in so many ways.  I can think of at least 2 pivotal points in my past that IF I had listened to my inner "RED ALERT", I would have ran away from what I was about to do. 

However, Since I don't have a time machine, I cannot go back and change my past.  I have had talks with both of my adult children and apologized for many things since I mostly raised them as a single parent. I learned last summer that I have to forgive myself and move forward.

When I was getting over/recovering from my 2nd divorce, I actually prayed for God to remove the emotional connection and reminders attached to the memory of my ex husband.   I had to ask daily for the courage to keep going and move forward as a single woman again.  It was not easy and between my day job and my PartyLite business, I was determined to stay busy so that I didn't get down in the dumps.

Mother's Day and Father's Day can be depression triggers for many folks especially if they have strained relationships with their parents, their parents have passed away and many other reasons that cause them pain on these 'Hallmark Made' holidays.  If you are going through feelings like that today, please know that I understand. I personally hated Mother's Day for years because I looked back at my life and only saw the ways I failed my children while raising them the best I knew how at the time.

I still have bouts of depression at times and days I just break down and cry for many reasons.  I still make plenty of mistakes, over-react to people's comments, misunderstand things that I hear and all kinds of things.

In spite of having bad days or bad moods, I am thankful for my husband and for my children and family. Here in 2020, I am doing my best to made prayerful and careful decisions about my future so that I can have peace.

I wish all of my family and friends to have peace and count your blessings! (I promise you there is SOMETHING to be thankful for!)

Now I have to go for now, time to check on hubby (he sprained his ankle earlier in the week and I am doing my best to be a good helper wife).